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onanadventure ([personal profile] onanadventure) wrote in [community profile] aworldforusall2016-06-12 05:58 pm
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Make it to me

WHO: Atawhai and Ran
WHERE: The streets of Birchpointe
WHEN: Afternoon
OPEN/CLOSED: Closed
WARNINGS: Gaaaaaay possibility for later warnings

It wasn't uncommon anymore to find Atawhai and Ran together. They were very much together at this point, and they didn't really care who knew about it. At least, Atawhai had always been incredibly open about it, excited to talk to anyone who would listen about Ran. He wasn't obnoxious about it, he just...loved him, a lot. And he wanted him to know as much.

Today they're walking together down the street away from the busier parts of town as they head for a cafe they'd been planning on having lunch together at. Atawhai managed to sneak his hand into Ran's a while ago, and now he's swinging their arms as they walk, whiskers twitching as he flashes him a broad, toothy smile.

"It sure is getting hot out, isn't it? Makes me wish I could get away with wearing less. Maybe I should get a hair cut..."
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[personal profile] ahowltolightthedark 2016-06-12 11:15 pm (UTC)(link)
"But if you did, there would be nothing for me to mess up," Ran answered, smirking as he used his free hand to tussle Atawhai's hair. "You could simply take after your brother, strutting around showing off your chest."
Edited 2016-06-12 23:15 (UTC)
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[personal profile] ahowltolightthedark 2016-06-13 04:24 am (UTC)(link)
"I could, but I can't guarantee you'll feel anything through that thick head of yours." The wolf laughs teasingly and taps the cat's head himself.
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[personal profile] ahowltolightthedark 2016-06-21 03:26 am (UTC)(link)
Ran scrabbles at Atawhai's hand to get it out of his hair. "You can't inherit anything from your twin and you know it. You're just trying to make excuses now." He laughs, but then smells something on the air - something he doesn't like.

His demeanor sobers quickly, his tail swaying low. "...Atawhai, do you smell it too?"
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[personal profile] ahowltolightthedark 2016-06-22 03:46 am (UTC)(link)
The wolf demon feels his heart beating faster. "Bad," he answers his boyfriend.


Even worse is that they're alone...and Ran is intimately familiar with this scent. "We should find somewhere safer, before it finds us." Any closer and they'd be able to see it - and that would be the end of it.
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[personal profile] ahowltolightthedark 2016-06-23 05:28 pm (UTC)(link)
"Anywhere. It's a Chaotic!"

There was no sense in hiding it from Atawhai, and if they don't move now it's going to be too late.
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[personal profile] ahowltolightthedark 2016-06-25 12:08 am (UTC)(link)
He doesn't have much confidence they'll make it that far in time, but anything's better than nothing. When Atawhai grabs him, Ran doesn't hesitate, practically leaping into a run.

"Get us higher!" he shouts, seeing taller buildings just up ahead.
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[personal profile] ahowltolightthedark 2016-06-26 06:50 am (UTC)(link)
Being grabbed so quickly makes Ran lose his breath, which he has to work to regain as Atawhai pulls them up to the roof. His panting keeps him from saying anything more, but at least they're further out of reach now.
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[personal profile] ahowltolightthedark 2016-06-27 05:18 am (UTC)(link)
Ran can't answer, trying to catch his breath. "C-city," is all he manages to say. His eyes dart around, but he can't focus enough to pick a roof to jump to.
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[personal profile] ahowltolightthedark 2016-07-01 11:05 pm (UTC)(link)
"STOP!" he has to yell, seeing that the Chaotic has somehow made it ahead of them - and is now in their way. The monstrous black beast folds an enormous pair of wings as it crashes hard onto the rooftop they're about to jump to, and opens a huge mouth full of fangs to roar at its prey.
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[personal profile] ahowltolightthedark 2016-07-04 01:47 am (UTC)(link)
Ran has to stomp his feet into the rooftop to stop himself, and steps back along with his boyfriend. His ears are laid flat, and his tail wags low, anxious for what's about to happen.

The beast, however, wastes no time. Ignoring the cat's attempts to belay it, the Chaotic lunges forward, enormous claws swiping at both of them at once.
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[personal profile] ahowltolightthedark 2016-07-07 01:26 am (UTC)(link)
The wolf demon can't jump as powerfully as Atawhai. A pained shout echoes, Ran's howl carrying far as the Chaotic's claws rend into his shoulder, each one likea sword. The blow sends him flying, landing hard against the rooftop with no breath left in his lungs to cry out again. His clothing is in shreds, his arm is useless, and he can barely focus to see what's happening to the most precious person he's ever known. He tries once to pick himself up, but it's no use. He's about to lose someone again, right in front of him.
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[personal profile] ahowltolightthedark 2016-07-08 12:38 am (UTC)(link)
"Ata...no..." Ran can't even shout loud enough for his boyfriend to hear him. His heartbeat is rushing to his head, pulsing in his vision, pounding in his ears, but he still can't move. After watching his parents murdered by a monster, now he has to watch the same happen to the one person he loves, and there's nothing he can do about it.

...Unless...
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[personal profile] ahowltolightthedark 2016-07-08 01:15 am (UTC)(link)
"ATAWHAI!"

Shockwaves of air blast Ran to his feet, quickly followed by another that launches him toward the Chaotic with a speed like nothing else. Within an instant, he's between the caracal and the beast, standing strong. For the briefest of moments, the Chaotic is surprised at the suddenness of the wolf demon's appearance, and Ran's perfectly trained body takes advantage of the opening without a thought.

A shockwave at his feet propels him forward, another slams his fist into the creature with such a powerful uppercut that the monster is forced off its feet. The wolf demon swings his leg around using another shockwave, his foot connecting so hard with the airborne Chaotic's neck that it's sent spinning. Using one more shockwave Ran leaps high into the air, righting himself just before arcing his leg high above him. A final shockwave brings his foot down in an unbelievable axe kick, crashing into the Chaotic's back with so much strength that it bends backwards even as it impacts the rooftop in a crater.

The wolf demon lands, panting, as the Chaotic's limp body falls, then turns to dust. His shirt and jacket have been torn to shreds now, leaving plainly visible the Steel Thorn tattoo that sprawls over his entire back.
Edited 2016-07-08 01:26 (UTC)
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[personal profile] ahowltolightthedark 2016-07-09 10:37 am (UTC)(link)
For a moment, Ran stands still. How can he possibly explain something like this?

"I...I couldn't let it hurt you..." he finally says, breathlessly. His gaze falls to the ground, with his ears and his tail. There's nothing he can do now, even as tears start to sting his eyes.
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[personal profile] ahowltolightthedark 2016-07-11 08:22 pm (UTC)(link)
Rasping breaths are the best Ran can do to answer. So much is running through his mind that he can't even think. He can't even cover up his tattoo, he can't pretend that this didn't happen. He can't go back, no matter how badly he wants to.

"Atawhai..." he finally manages. "I..."

The wolf demon chokes back a sob, instead turning into a long, drawn-out whimper.

"...I'm so, so sorry..."

Images of his parents' death make him ball his fists tight, but not even the reminder of why he joined Steel Thorn can steel his resolve. Not once has Ran ever seen Atawhai so hurt, and nothing the wolf can tell himself convinces him that anything was worth it. If it meant Atawhai could have avoided all this...Ran would have never...

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[personal profile] ahowltolightthedark 2016-07-13 07:07 pm (UTC)(link)
Is his answer good enough? Ran knows full well why he's part of Steel Thorn. But facing Atawhai now, like this...

Blood drips from his palms as he digs his claws in deep. "Th-..."

The words won't come. For his whole life, he's fought for this. Killed humans, tore them apart like a savage animal - all for the sake of one thing. He squeezes his eyes shut, as if he could close them so hard he would never have to open them again. He can't look at Atawhai anymore. He can't see that pain, he can't.

"No matter what I say..."

Again he can't finish, but he forces the words out, through tears and gasping breaths.

"...I'm still a monster."

Ever since he watched his parents slaughtered, this has been his fate. And he'd accepted it...until just this very moment.
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[personal profile] ahowltolightthedark 2016-07-16 09:37 pm (UTC)(link)
There's no use in saying anything. Ran's thoughts are already tearing him apart from the inside, anyway. He's just going to show Atawhai what he means.

Slowly, his body begins to tremble. He clutches both arms tight around his chest, like he's trying to hold something in, and with a pained shout a cloud erupts from his body. Once it's clear, a giant monster stands in Ran's, clearly wolf-like in the daylight. The same monster that had been sighted attacking some of Birchpointe's vigilante heroes.

However, despite the new fearsome appearance, Ran's posture isn't any different from before. Guilt, shame, and sorrow have overtaken any strength this powerful form might grant him.

As he speaks, it's clear his vocal chords are just barely capable in this form. His words are guttural and low, so gravelly he sounds like he's in pain using them to talk. "Humans...killed my parents...and I...w-wanted...revenge..."

He hides his bestial face with one huge hand, failing to suppress a sob, but the deep, rumbling noise betrays itself despite him.
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[personal profile] ahowltolightthedark 2016-07-18 08:16 pm (UTC)(link)
All at once, Ran's monstrous appearance dissipates back into the dark cloud it came from, leaving the much smaller wolf demon - now looking more vulnerable than ever.

"I...I can't," he says, tears freely flowing through his tightly closed eyes.

Finally, echoing Atawhai without realizing it, Ran collapses to the rooftop. He pulls his legs in tight and hugs them, unable to stop himself from sobbing and whimpering.
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[personal profile] ahowltolightthedark 2016-07-21 01:21 am (UTC)(link)
"I know, I know!" Ran feels like he doesn't have control of himself anymore. "But what am I supposed to do? I can't go back to my Father like this, and I have nowhere else to go. I don't even know how to live like everyone else anymore, this has been my whole life!"
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[personal profile] ahowltolightthedark 2016-07-24 07:42 pm (UTC)(link)
"You..."

The words echo in his mind, as if they'd been shouted in his ears. Gently, he lifts his gaze to meet Atawhai's, his eyes bloodshot and his eyelids raw from tears. A mix of dread and relief washes over him all at once, leaving him stunned. But Atawhai...he doesn't say things like that without meaning it.

"Whe...where do we start...?"
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[personal profile] ahowltolightthedark 2016-07-26 02:52 am (UTC)(link)
"I...guess so..."

Problem is, after all that, Ran doesn't feel like he can move. He's surprised he can even talk, really. But...he doesn't want to make things any more difficult for Atawhai than he already has.

All the determination in the world can't erase the effects of stress like this, though, and as Ran finally tries to stand he finds that his strength truly has left him. He manages only to lift himself slightly before having to use a shockwave to keep his balance and quickly returning to the ground, this time on all fours.

He laughs at himself, derisively. "Looks like...I might...need some help..." What would Father think if he saw this? Not like it matters, anyway...Father would never want to see him again, now.